Below 21 Experienced

Hello everyone~ Happy New year! Happy CNY

haha...to everyone i cared and love
wish you guys happy January~

Today..
I had experienced a state level championship on my main sport
MARTIAL ARTs
KARATE

it was
11th State Cadet and Junior Karate Championship
held on 07th and 08th of January

I joined under 21 event (below 53kg)
7 contestants in my event are the SUKMA's player..

60% of the contestants were very experienced.
I had a lot of experienced in Karate's sport too..sadly
i am not well train to be the best.

Shortly..

I LOOSE.

it was really HARD to accept it at the beginning..i was crush..and devastating..
When the moment was over..i hold my feeling from falling apart..
i hold my heartaches chest..i 'smile' to my friends..

Thank you to
Math for lending me his gloves and shinguard
thank you very much to
the manager of TENOM for lending me a blue belt..

THANK YOU

review..
before i start..i ask for my friend's help..to borrow from any other club for my
sparing's equipment..since our were used by other athlete.
Sadly..the person let me down..

i had to run all over again to borrow all the things..
i was still at the Astaka when the narator called me name TWICE..

me -asking for help
s.o.s

i ran very fast to the Tatami
i wear all the safety first 'dress'

and i fought.
Met SUKMA's player
Callista Hiew

1-0

continue the story..

i ran to the washroom..
i entered one of the toilet..

i cried really hard..i am so ashamed of my self..i hate myself and
i made a thought to leave karate FOREVER..

i cried..and cried..

i stand in front of the mirror and i wash my hands..for..quiet a long period..

i was actually calming my self..then when i thought i was ready to go out again..
i ran into my friend..

The person ask me if i am okeii..
i said "I am fine.."

Then it hold my hand and ask me one more time..
" Grace..are you okay ? "

I stand stood and i said..
"No~"
with tears rolling from my eyes..

My friend hold my shoulder..
"Don't cry please.."

*a HUG*

It calm me..i thought i will bear the sadness alone..i thought i had loose my friend..
loosing the competition made me felt like an outsider..
i cried so hard..so, this is the feeling of released from something big..

then we sit and i covered my head..i cried..
i say no words at all..

Because i don't want to waste my friend's precious time..so i ask it to leave..

'you can go now..i promise i will be fine..'

to be continue..

=)


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LOVE


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grace