Just Being ME.

Hye there, my fellas, my dear awesome friends and blogger. :) I'm back !! haha...I just finish my tiring days at Mapan-mapan village in Pitas, Sabah. I had a lot of new experiences and yes, it truly teach me to be stronger    

and more mature. 

        First day, 20th September 2013, I was still sick..my head were very heavy..I suffered from flu fever..it was NOT awesome at all..but yes. ! I am strong and I still force my self to come along. that day, I have not much of a choice..I don't drive obviously..my option is to wait for my family to fetch me from space. haha..space is actually a place that I'm staying now. I waited from 4:30pm until 20:00pm..went home..grab anything I need..buy anything I can ( can't really buy all the needs because most of the store were already close ), back to Space and went to Gallery. 

          Second day, 21st September 2013, me and my friends woke up at 5am..bath..get ready..upload all the things and stuff on board. We moved at 6:30am..8am, we arrived at Kota Marudu..they went for breakfast..I got worst..I was sick. *** cut the unhappy part shall we ? hehe..

Shortly,

I am only fully recover at on the 24th of September 2013. But, I never feel all the experience I have was a waste of time and a total torturing experience ever..even though I am totally sick and weak I still have one thing. SPIRIT. that is what makes me different from the others. Some people see me and judge me that I am only being lazy when it comes to some stuffs that needs to be done..I stop when I truly can't hold it..but as long as I can hold the pain and keep on enjoying my time there..I will do it..my nature not only bring happiness to my self but also the other friends who were really stress out with the environment and really poor place. The area was really sad, hot and the weather were dry and sickening.

However, everything went well till the end..I wanna be strong and I did. I am happy to have this experience. I love you Abba Father :) thank you Lord for Your guidance...

sincerely me,

miss grace.

The Lotus Eater..

Good morning fellas..good morning Malaysia..

____________________ I am LOST.

***This blog is ain't about things like this..but what should I do, where should I scream this thing out..when can I actually feel peace in my heart..
Am I being the old me again..?
OVER THINKING ?

secondly, Am I a bad person..?
Can I do the right thing without hurting..Is it okay to say good bye ? Where can I release this tense..its eating me everyday and I am not happy..to bear this guilt and to live in it every day..trying to make everything okay but it torn me into pieces every time I try..

Did I care too much that I loose the one I already hold on too..or I am just being me, releasing the feeling tat buried deep down for such a long time..or I am just pretending that everything gonna be just fine at the end of this drama..who am I dealing with ?

ME ?

eventually its all up to me..and I wonder why..can I pick my self..?
Can I choose my own self ? I have a good life, God loves me..He bless me with a lot of good things and such a wonderful family..so why don't I walk the road all by my self..I did it once I surely can do it again..* but I can't..I made a promise..

     What should I do to make my self happy..what can I do...to create a situation that everyone will okay with it..sacrifice ?..I am living in my dream that I forgot I've crossed too much lines. now I'm in trouble and it looks..funny.* I leave this things to you God :) You enhance my life every time I hit the bottom. Now, I realised that I don't have to be afraid..because what ever it is that waiting me in the future..I know You will lead me to the best.

**hoho..I felt so much better now..thank you blog, thank you mr. brain..thank You Holy Spirit. :) You just make my day.

sincerely,
miss grace

Clear book

Hey there :) Hello awesome friends and family also..bloggers..facebookers..twiiterianss..lol

        Hello September~ Welcome to my life..please be nice to me..(sad)..Here I am ! I am back to Sabah :D

After battling with the journey in KL, now I can really put aside all the burdens and just relax at least for two or three days. hihi

But, unfortunately..I can't do that..I made a mess..and I hope its not too late to fix it..or..leave it..I don't know..I don't know..I feels like I am doing the right thing..but at the very same time..I have a moral conscious saying that what I believe was not true..well what should I do ? What is actually happening now in my life.?.yeah, I have all the time needed to think of this..and figure it out..but the answer were still..quiet blurr..well I myself I do not know what I am typing at this very moment but all I know is..expressing this kind of messed up mind kinda sooth me up...haha..I surely do not know what I am doing right now..sorry guys.

But the truth is..fairy tailes doesn't always end up with a happy ending*

sincerely,

miss grace.