I am struggling..

I am seriously struggling.

I am confused.

I love our Father in Heaven so much that I try my hard to figure out everything.

Why is that happening.

At least before all this I am ME and really close to God.

Is it a Satan way to make me far from Him?

that is so sneaky and seriously evil.

"How can you feel so far from God when you are actually at the right place to stand."

Should I blame myself for being so insecure and unhappy.

Why is this happening..why did I chose it to be this way?

Am I too young to understand God's love? or AM I NEVER WILL UNDERSTAND ?

will I forever be judge by everyone near me?

I am so confused.

I am really confused. ACTUALLY.

No.

sigh

NO.

 NOPE.

I am a human being too !!

JUST LIKE THEM I HAVE REGRETS IN LIFE TOO !!

YES !!

YES !!!

I made mistake. Big one. maybe two, no..maybe the whole year in my life. BUT listen carefully,

I don't live to embrace anyone on EARTH. right...right? are you listening? are you reading??

I AM NOT A TOY !!!

and I am not a barbie to live just to be judge on the appearance, beauty and that fake permanent smile.

NO.

I am not going to please anyone.

I live to be happy and accept my mistakes, accept my life, accept my weakness.

I live to embrace God and spread His love in the most positive ways I can.

I live to have friends who will make me seriously out of my mind but still stick with them because they are the best !!

I live to enjoy every moment of my life because I can't never know what will happen in the future !! 

I live ONLY to please GOD !!!

BECAUSE I CERTAINLY KNOW !!

ONLY BY PLEASING HIM, PRAISING HIM !!

I WILL HAVE THE BEST MEMORIES ON EARTH while Breathing by the BREAD OF LIFE.

I live to be HAPPY because of Him.

PERIOD.

sincerely on Sabbath day,

15th August 2014

Friday

Grace

p/s : i wrote right away from my mind. I am sorry for all the grammar mistake.