Few Times I Failed

Dear Father..I am very thankful because You love me so much you teach me about a lot of things..
I am so glad to have You by my side all the time...I missed You so much..but I know that You will always be by my side..however, I don't know why..I..I don't go to church any more..and I am very sad..very..

I feel empty and lost..sometimes I don't know the boundaries or even the right way to go..
I thought...everything went well..just like the way You want..but..No..I think You want me to learn more..

I think You actually wanna tell me that You miss me..Father...I am sorry...
I am very sorry...