Few Times I Failed

Dear Father..I am very thankful because You love me so much you teach me about a lot of things..
I am so glad to have You by my side all the time...I missed You so much..but I know that You will always be by my side..however, I don't know why..I..I don't go to church any more..and I am very sad..very..

I feel empty and lost..sometimes I don't know the boundaries or even the right way to go..
I thought...everything went well..just like the way You want..but..No..I think You want me to learn more..

I think You actually wanna tell me that You miss me..Father...I am sorry...
I am very sorry...

My sight..

Hello awesome friends and family..
What I see nowadays are no longer important..it is what I feel..that matter..I don't know..I don't..I am sad..I mean..very..hah..

I hate my self when I am in this situation..I am at the very bottom place..my heart are sinking and my sight become blurry and it is very hard..heavy...this burden..

I just don't understand..I just don't..I really don't understand..the question is..why..?

I have no more idea..I have no more faith..I have no more trust..I have no more smile..I had gone blind..

I am blind..because of you..I am stupid..because of you..I am hurt to the limit..because of you..the question is..who are you ?

Who are you..that it hurts that much..?

why..

Why..my tears doesn't count isn't it..my voice doesn't deserve to be heard isn't it..I am just a tiny girl isn't it..I am so small that you only see me when you need me..

why..

This is too much..who is willing  to save..ME..

I am falling...down...

I am a wall flower

Hello ending October, hye life, hello awesome friends. *exhale with a totally tired and fed up expression..sigh..

Hihi..guys..I pity my self for being a wall flower..but at the same time..I am glad to be one. Dear friends..be responsible for the words you say or promises you made to the one you care because it is not easy to build up the faith back on some one. Trust is important..

Yeah..this is simply taken from piece of my life..I realised that..I look so pathetic..nahh...I'm not..:)
The question is..what I have done with my life..
hehe...Thank You Lord for the strength You gave..aww...

A Wake Up Call

‎Thursday, ‎October ‎03, ‎2013  9:02:28 PM

Today, I learn something new and awesome. :) I am so glad and happy that I got the chance to hear all the amazing things from Him. Dear Father in Heaven, thank You for sending me such a wise and amazing friends. I realise that You had plan something for me and I know that it will be a good thing, dear Father in Heaven, I praise You with all my heart for all this and I am very thankful for the good news You brought for me. Dear Father, Thank You.

Dear fella friends, facebookers, bloggers and family.. Today I had an amazing wake up call from my very own friend. He woke me up with all the things that is happening in front of me but I just don't realise about that. Once again, yeah..it was awesome. I love You God. Thank You Lord.

I realise that I am loosing my grip..I am starting to act into some one that I don't wanna be at all. This is very complicated but in a simple way I can describe is..I am loosing my faith.

Yes, faith is very important. Maybe it is because of my recently activities that causes me to be someone else or else it is because of my old experience that causes me to be more independent and strict. I am strict to my self and I am strict to my friends simply because I am afraid that I can't handle the pressure in the future. I don't wanna be so tired at the end because I have a lot of things to do...wait..wait..I am being that person again. Ouhh No !
_____________________________censored my mind. hahaha

Hello there ! ^^ hahaha...I am just afraid..thats all..and what my friend said just now was right. YES ! They were right ! What I learn today is;

1. Trust your friend. With out faith, every one can't reach what they need.
2. Trust your friend. Because they understand your situation.
3. Trust your friend. Because they want the best for themselves too.
4. Trust your friend. You will amaze your self in such a beautiful feeling. hahaha
haish...i love them. :)

They are the best. Can't believe I said this, but I now know that I can put my trust on them and I am so happy about that.

Dear friends, I am sorry for being such a strict person, pushing you guys to do things on my way and pushing you guys to be in stressful situation. I am very sorry for that. Today I realise that I do can count on you guys. Thank you very much. :) I feel so bless and happy.

THANK YOU LORD FOR A BEAUTIFUL LIFE YOU GAVE.

sincerely,
miss grace.

Hello October

Hello awesome friends, family and blogger.:) Hye October, welcome to my life..I am hoping for a great journey ahead of me after this..because past is past and I should stay healthy, happy and strong. This is not the time for me to write about sad things on my blog haha..I just couldn't bear the feeling of writing something 'heavy' on a blog that is so cute and adorable like mine..aww..^^

Hey guys, you might thought that your life isn't that cool, you're bored..unhappy.feeling old..and so on so on..to tell the truth, a person who has/have those kind of thinking will appear to be the biggest looser fellas. hahaha..

Why, simply because you are wasting your youth, energy and time on things that is NOT TRUE AT ALL.
Cheer up ! SMILE please ! Look out of the box..think positively and within a second you will found inspiration and within a second you will find peace. And with the peace inside your heart, you will feel healthier, younger and awesomer. haha :P

Life isn't about the pointer or competing with each other. Its about loving your self in the best way you can.
As for me ?
I love my self so much that I preserve it with education, spiritual foods and sports, by doing that along with all the scientific explanation some where some how, I felt better, stronger and happier. :D

You wouldn't trust me if you do not take the first step. :)

Go out and explore.

Sincerely,
miss october Grace.

My last mind

‎Sunday, ‎September ‎29, ‎2013  10:47:11 AM

Here I am having my weekend here in my bedroom at Sri Angkasa, Darau. In this past few days I've been ripped off mentally and physically simply because I am committed with my work and studies. I am not the best student nor the cleverest of them all but I always have my own point of view. I always wanted to do the best and save as many time as I can so that I can do other stuff like yeah, my training session.

Its been a wild time for me there in Mapan-mapan village, also it was the craziest move I ever made or should I say stupidity. * I am sorry for using that kind of statement.

Maybe it was because of the hormon or I should just blame my self for being a punk. Is it wrong to push your friends so that they realise that they were doing it wrong? I am not saying that I am always right but I just wana be fair.

Hm...dear bloggers, friends and family, life is not just about respect and listen but also about consciousness and consideration. I am being a jerk in my group simply because I want the best for all of us. :)
Cili Padi group is the best.

Just Being ME.

Hye there, my fellas, my dear awesome friends and blogger. :) I'm back !! haha...I just finish my tiring days at Mapan-mapan village in Pitas, Sabah. I had a lot of new experiences and yes, it truly teach me to be stronger    

and more mature. 

        First day, 20th September 2013, I was still sick..my head were very heavy..I suffered from flu fever..it was NOT awesome at all..but yes. ! I am strong and I still force my self to come along. that day, I have not much of a choice..I don't drive obviously..my option is to wait for my family to fetch me from space. haha..space is actually a place that I'm staying now. I waited from 4:30pm until 20:00pm..went home..grab anything I need..buy anything I can ( can't really buy all the needs because most of the store were already close ), back to Space and went to Gallery. 

          Second day, 21st September 2013, me and my friends woke up at 5am..bath..get ready..upload all the things and stuff on board. We moved at 6:30am..8am, we arrived at Kota Marudu..they went for breakfast..I got worst..I was sick. *** cut the unhappy part shall we ? hehe..

Shortly,

I am only fully recover at on the 24th of September 2013. But, I never feel all the experience I have was a waste of time and a total torturing experience ever..even though I am totally sick and weak I still have one thing. SPIRIT. that is what makes me different from the others. Some people see me and judge me that I am only being lazy when it comes to some stuffs that needs to be done..I stop when I truly can't hold it..but as long as I can hold the pain and keep on enjoying my time there..I will do it..my nature not only bring happiness to my self but also the other friends who were really stress out with the environment and really poor place. The area was really sad, hot and the weather were dry and sickening.

However, everything went well till the end..I wanna be strong and I did. I am happy to have this experience. I love you Abba Father :) thank you Lord for Your guidance...

sincerely me,

miss grace.

The Lotus Eater..

Good morning fellas..good morning Malaysia..

____________________ I am LOST.

***This blog is ain't about things like this..but what should I do, where should I scream this thing out..when can I actually feel peace in my heart..
Am I being the old me again..?
OVER THINKING ?

secondly, Am I a bad person..?
Can I do the right thing without hurting..Is it okay to say good bye ? Where can I release this tense..its eating me everyday and I am not happy..to bear this guilt and to live in it every day..trying to make everything okay but it torn me into pieces every time I try..

Did I care too much that I loose the one I already hold on too..or I am just being me, releasing the feeling tat buried deep down for such a long time..or I am just pretending that everything gonna be just fine at the end of this drama..who am I dealing with ?

ME ?

eventually its all up to me..and I wonder why..can I pick my self..?
Can I choose my own self ? I have a good life, God loves me..He bless me with a lot of good things and such a wonderful family..so why don't I walk the road all by my self..I did it once I surely can do it again..* but I can't..I made a promise..

     What should I do to make my self happy..what can I do...to create a situation that everyone will okay with it..sacrifice ?..I am living in my dream that I forgot I've crossed too much lines. now I'm in trouble and it looks..funny.* I leave this things to you God :) You enhance my life every time I hit the bottom. Now, I realised that I don't have to be afraid..because what ever it is that waiting me in the future..I know You will lead me to the best.

**hoho..I felt so much better now..thank you blog, thank you mr. brain..thank You Holy Spirit. :) You just make my day.

sincerely,
miss grace

Clear book

Hey there :) Hello awesome friends and family also..bloggers..facebookers..twiiterianss..lol

        Hello September~ Welcome to my life..please be nice to me..(sad)..Here I am ! I am back to Sabah :D

After battling with the journey in KL, now I can really put aside all the burdens and just relax at least for two or three days. hihi

But, unfortunately..I can't do that..I made a mess..and I hope its not too late to fix it..or..leave it..I don't know..I don't know..I feels like I am doing the right thing..but at the very same time..I have a moral conscious saying that what I believe was not true..well what should I do ? What is actually happening now in my life.?.yeah, I have all the time needed to think of this..and figure it out..but the answer were still..quiet blurr..well I myself I do not know what I am typing at this very moment but all I know is..expressing this kind of messed up mind kinda sooth me up...haha..I surely do not know what I am doing right now..sorry guys.

But the truth is..fairy tailes doesn't always end up with a happy ending*

sincerely,

miss grace.

Zee Bruise Lee.

:: Me..NOW, seat back and relax..just enjoying the beauty essence, Tanaka's Powder..

Hello awesome friends and family !

Happy Eid Mubarak :D

Yeah I am having fun visiting my friends houses during this celebration season. Aww..(smiling)

Well, as usual this is me :D

Miss Grace with my cute little blog name 'Acesay' 

I did not took a very good care of my body recently, so I think I should take this time 

and just massage plus spoil my body parts. 

My legs are killing me, my back is hurt, everything were in BIG pain..but..

I never felt more alive than this. 

(smiling again)

So,

What happen in this few weeks before we go to Selangor for the MASUM carnival ?

My co-karatekas step on my toe..and..there you go..haha..Now every time

I bounce I can feel something was there..like a little fairy or small man like dwarf...no he is still too big..

feels like a small fairy just sitting there and I can feel it..not really hurt but it irritate me and the feeling was

not really good. haha..

So I censored most of this picture because I don't feel comfortable showing it to anyone..

however, this is what happen when you were 'sleeping' during a tournament.

It definitely affects my sleep time and yes..its hurt..how does it happen ?

I was 'sleeping'

I SHOULD really keep up my speed and always alert. 

So, I found out that..there were a big different..between Kamikaze and the way my friend assist me in this sport.

I can't always follow up to their new techniques and all but..I always can add what ever i needed

in my own dictionary.

It was a big HELP from both of the side.

and I am very thankful for that.

really thankful.

I am glad that..this time..I mean..at last..one of my little dream will come true..

yeah its hurt of course..but does it worth it?

YES.

Hold on..

Hye awesome guys...:) Hello August. Welcome to my life. :D

As usual I am on my ninja-to-be training. haha..no lah..simply I am just training for few Sport's event.

So, recently, I felt great..but just now..NOT really good..why ? I am super tired and severely injured.

SEVERE ? hihi...not really..what makes it severe was when the pain was added by the 'curse'..did you guys know what the curse is ? Well that was just a joke. It was not a curse..it was a 'sign' ~ *miahaha..

" A SIGN ? Are you kidding me Grace ? "

Okay okay I am sorry. haha..yeah. Its a sign that I am a healthy girl and I did normal thing like menstruation.
It was my period pain..it added the pain that I already get from last night tournament. Fuhh..

I am not saying that my friends idea about picking a random piece of paper with your friend's name on it will became your opponent..but..its a little bit odd. Of course..my first match I met a little girl ?? Are you kidding me ? yeah good for them because I am not going to hurt anyone.

But my second match ? ughh =.= *no comment
He left me with all this bruises that not even on the 'point' area. heyy common how long have you been practicing why did you still play like you wish your opponent will die. This aint boxing man. **dush dush crappy weird words from me. hahaha

Well..what ever happen in the future..I support all of my juniors. They deserve the medal because I saw how much they had improved and its a good sign. :)

Not for me, because I still have my training session with friends in Uni and I am not sure if I can reach their goal..with all this pain inside and out. I just have to push my self to the limit.

wish me all the best. :)

The Brain will always win

Hye guys..I've been in insomnia condition for quite a while now..and I feel really upset..Because it affects my schedule more often and I really have problem waking up early in the morning..:(

Guys..hello ? anybody ? Help me how to overcome this situation..please..anyone ?

Also in this particular week I have my Karate training session..and it was awesomely tired. I also join my friends at the campus stadium for some fitness activity. I found it very good and healthy also not to mention embarrassing. :( *!@#$%^&*( LOL. keep in mind.


Now ? I am devilishly dead tired.

because..Ive been doing 4 things in one week. XD Two part time job.. and two karate training session.
wicked.

no matter how tired my body is...my brain just don't wana sleep. I hate it..I have work to do tomorrow please sleep !! X(
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SAD and Happy

 hey guys :) Today I experienced a great time with my Clement and yeah..I love it. hihi..

Well...entering July was quite hard...I mean...yeah...fuhh...**haha how many times should I continuously SIGH.

lalala

By the way..I love him for making my mumbling came true. :')

I almost cry and I don't know why..I am so happy that I can't stop my self from SMILING ^^

This is the second time he did this for me and I am very thankful for this. Thank You God~

The fact is..I almost give up on us..yeah..that is true..because I finally had no more reason to back up

him when I was in 'interrogation' process by his beloved I-know-who..

At that very moment something hit me that..my whole vision become blurry.

I can't think straight and all I can do was..sit..watch cartoon..eat..sleep..

And because of that zero-exist issue also we have a fight. 

C & G faced a really hard time dealing with this 'thing' and it was very torturing..sigh.

and guess what ?? it worth NOTHING.

we fought, we argued, I was stressed out, he was unhappy...for what??

NO THING 

***

That is why I said..

Life is weird.

bla bla bla

Hey !! It was 1st of July !! C & G Anniversary  !!

 Cheese with extra Love and care from Clement to Grace.

Thank you hubbykun..

:: Love byte from us..haha

:: " Happy anniversary dear..Thank you for always b my no 1 gift ! " - Clement

" No one else would understand our relationship n no one else in this world would understand me the way you do. Happy anniversary " - Grace

p/s : I love you

pray for our happiness guys. I really appreciate it. 

sincerely,

miss grace

My July :)

Hello dear awesome friends :) and of course..welcome to my life July ^^ I am super excited because it is a month of me being shhhh** I am turning 21 this year and I am thrilled ! haha

By the way my friends and family..I would like to share a little bit of my dark and bright stories. :) and of course..I always let the pictures do the talking.. *much love from me. 

well guys :) I hope you enjoy the colors and God bless you all..

Much love from,

miss Grace

Little Bizarre

Hey there my awesome friends :D, so here I am posting new news about me. Recently I had face a lot..haha I don't think I want to share it here. Shortly, it was a great journey..not so happy but OKAY.

So..we were having our vacation yeay vacation at home. (blueeeeee)...the big question is..WHAT ARE YOU ACTUALLY ??

Why am I posting this ? yeah, someone should answer this, no I am not drunk or under drug influence. I am just being me and...think. Always think and become more blurr at the end of the process.

I don't know..I don't know..stop asking me.

So, the story sounds like this...there were a friends. a friendship between two opposite sex people who had been friends for quiet a long time. So, what happen was the boy fall for the girl. Shortly, the girl rejected the boy nicely and the boy accept it MATURELY or should I say MACHOLY ?? or crocodiely ?? (just pop out of my mind what can I do..haha) So, after a while..the boy invited the girl and other friends out. awkwardly the outing was just fine...but few sh*t things happen like the boy were being rebellion and show negative kinda responds towards almost every single act the girl did. The girl obviously notices that and was internally PISSED off.

So, why was the boy shows that kind of attitude to the girl that suppose to be his friend for quiet a while ??

mature ?


out of list..

Hello JUNE :)

          Hello there my awesomes friends..facebookers and bloggers :D how are you guys ? Yeah right? its JUNE  ! :) haha...Well people spend their time wisely now because it is a season of you-know-what ^^

GRr...by the way..I am welcoming JUNE with Open heart..I am afraid of the future but who doesn't right ?

I believe that its normal to be afraid of new things..also...people change like the season..

Dear friends...believe in your faith. 

Thats all I can write tonight because...I believe in my faith. 

I faced a lot of circumstances nowadays and things doesn't look OKEY so far...so..it was very hard for me..to...you know...suite my self in the situation. 

It was..a ....disaster. 

:(

but please..DO NOT LOOSE HOPE on...JESUS CHRIST. **

He love you so much...He will never leave you. peace.

sincerely, grace

Little bit more..

Hello awesome friends..:D

Time..:) That is all I need. I am sad seeing the youngster especially high school student who wasting their time sneaking out from the school..while me here having this difficulties and wishing to go backward enjoying the moment  while I'm in high school.

:) Dear youngsters..please be alert. OPEN your eyes wider..see the beauty of your life..being a teenage and just having fun ^^ being able to do mistake and do it again until you get it right. :)

because when you're on my feet..everything will change.
Nothing comes and goes easily.. Well.. enjoy your time dear. :)

while it last..not forever but seize the day..and just have fun.

a bit sour taste in my tea..:')

Hold on for a little more time

Tonight I sleep very late..yeah I guess everyone knows why..yeah…my life was very tough right now..I just can’t imagine myself at a very down situation..not yet I guess..not now..

Fuhh..life is getting harder and harder and its making me nervous..how am I supposed to handle the future..I mean..my future. Am I gonna be just fine..or..worst. God how should I do it ? I am very confuse..really confuse actually..help me please..please..

Well..congratulate me today I just found out that I am the owner of the lowest marks in Japanese class..I felt..DOWN. J you know what I mean guys ??

I know God did saw how much effort I put this time..and it just…not enough. Well what should I do ?? HUHHhhhhh ?? WHAT ?

I spend most of the time on this subject because I am aware and yes I know the only reason that pull my pointer down from 3.50 is the Japanese course..gosshhhh why is it so HARD !

I studied Japanese every day !!! doesn’t it enough yet ? every time before I started my painting..I studied Japanese..I know how studying those things killing my brain and making me tired..(very tired actually) after that only I push myself doing my painting..which took the most hours of my sleep time.

Is it fair God ? Don’t make me sad Father..I know..I know..I am always be the stubborn one..putting my face away from Your commands..I knew..and I just couldn’t be the best child of Yours..I am not sulking definitely not being angry with You dear Father..I am sorry Father..I am just being me..human.

Father..I am not smart..and I am not the best human being on Earth..I also happen to be..nobody in this world but a sinner..

Father..when You commanded human to..

“ Seek first the kingdom of Heaven..and the REST will be given to you ” Father..I trusted that..and..I am very worried.

Does it means that I am not being a good child of Yours yet Father ?

Well technically, because I didn’t get the gred I deserved..were I ? Or it just happen because I did not try my best..

Father..how can I be assure that this time everthing will be fine ? Father..what should I do ? Father I am very sorry…please don’t leave me..I am naughty and I will be better next time..I will be a good girl..soon..Father…don’t neglecting me please God..:( I need You so much..

Sometimes..I just don’t understand how things goes in adult’s eyes..and I just don’t understand how to ease everyone.. I just don’t know how..I loose ? maybe..from what kind of fight ? dear Lord..sometimes I just wanna walk away..alone..and feel this emptiness by myself..maybe the time will arrive..where I finally be free..from my very own sympathetic feels.

Father..I read..I see..I felt..Your promises was REAL..and I just couldn’t ask for more when it just hits the light..I am so happy..and on that time I just couldn’t stop praising Your name..magnify Your power…Owh Father..it was beautiful..

And yes..the same me..putting Your very pure love in this situation..I am SORRY FATHER..

I didn’t do my best..I should push myself more..:(

Father..I want to ease You everyday..but I am not strong enough..Father..people come and go in my life..but one..You never leave me..I am very happy..You are my bestfriend..Father..You gave me Papau..and He comforts me in my very dark’s hours..in my very sad moment..in my very hard time..

Are You trying to teach me to be stronger Father ?

You take him back when You know that I can handle more things nowadays..Father ?

You love me so much..You didn’t let me cry alone when I loose Papau..You gave me Clement..Father?

I had been such a bad child..Father..I am very sorry..I was confuse and angry that it makes me forgot all the things You have done for me..Father I loose my bestfriend papau..but You are willing to let Your only Son to die for me ??

I worship You God..thank You Father. I love You. Things don’t always be smooth..I will hold on for a little more time..
Sincerely your open blogpal,

Grace.

Charcoal Mask time ^^

Hello awesome guys :)

After a broken heart yesterday :P

I finally found the silver lining behind the cloudy cloud.haha

Tears worth the price.

Well.

I am happy.

Today's activity was,

1. 1st time cooking together as a couple :P *envy much

we cooked, Korean cuisine + Malaya Cuisine

Chicken curry + Samgyeopal~ 

^^

*Happy face*

:: Only for advertisement purpose lol..the action that he did when I ask him..

" Did you like the flower ?.."--> The Yellow flower that I bought for him

when I was at Pekan Kundasang, Ranau, Sabah.

*He hug me from the back ( which melt my heart )

" I love it baby~ Thank you.."

S.M.I.L.E

^,_____________________,^

:: whats this ?? haha

So, after a wonderful meal with his lil sis too..we continue doing our stuff.

Like..facial time ^^

woOohh000 !

hahaha..

 He hated the look, but i love it ! I can't stop laughing..it was very funny..

despite of the 'manjaness' during the 'stamping on' process >< 

I laugh all the time..kikiki

:: He was shocked just now and act shocked too when Clytie take our picture bluekkss...kiddo moment ;P

::  After took off *pull the mask and washed his face..

We were gettin ready to fetch the princess from kastam ( Cloriaaaaaaa )

haha..Okeii..in this picture...I am FAT. 

SAD

lol.

after that..................................................................................................

WE WENT FOR A JOG ^^

No picture available but i'l give u guys the illustration. :)

So, he was so worried about me that he had to hold my phone, my hand and make sure that the

naughty puppy won't bite me..instead of living the lost naughty puppy..he decided to send her home

( shiny )..all the way from uphill to her guardian house was quiet a peak hill..He fall when he try to stand me still. :)

I just love him. thats all.

much love,

good nite.

grace. 

I cried..

Hello awesome friends and blogger ! :)

すうみません   みんなさん !! 

( I'm sorry everyone !!)

Because its been a while since I posted my last post :)

Well, today I had a blue day. hahaha

What happen ?

I cried

Because I was hurt, BUT it was not because I can't have my lunch with the boyfriend.

It is because of my best friend.

PAPAU

He was SICK.

YES. AGAIN.

and I was HURT...deeply hurt..that I can't hold the tears..and I just CRY..

Yes..He also loose his toe..why? I have no idea, I was at the University.

I just...I can't...I just can't imagine of loosing him okay !! 

Did you guys understand that !!

:(

He is my best friend...my very best friend..my one and only..

Did you guys know..that when I was at my darkess hour..papau was there for me.

 always make me laugh out loud..:')

He..He have something in his personality that makes me really care for him..

seeing him was like seeing the other ME.

His attitude reflects my attitude..:)

Him with his ego, stubborness and annoying face..hahaha

He is very naughty..I scolded him all the time..he make fun of himself in front of everyone !

I just..really LOVE him..i love him just like i love my self..i really care for him..

Its been two days I search for him, and just now...my aunt just make my tears drop..

When I couldn't find him..she said..

" That is a dog nature..he will hide himself from the guardian..he don't want to burden the guardian..

so that he can't die quietly in the wood "

*****

And I was like..

[ CRUSHED ]

Couldn't believe I just heard that...

After a moment..I found him..:')

He was sick...He has two holes on his body ( crying..)

His toe was totally gone..I can even see the bone comes out..

He was very week..he smells very bad..but I did not give up on him..I know that he will recover !!!

HE WILL !!!!

I will take a good care of him !!! 

I will..:(

I will take care of you papau~ I love you soo much..you are my best friend..please don't leave me..

please don't leave me pau..not yet..not yet..:(

NOT YET.

Without hesitate..

I drove myself to the supermarket..

I bought,

1. Spirit & Dettol ( to kills the maggot )

2. Iodine ( to help the recovery process)

3. cotton ( for the cleaning process)

4. Pedigree ( like a lot )

5. whiskas ( for the meaw )

6. Ice cream for me ^^ hehe

I am sure, with God help..i know..nothing impossible.

PAPAU will get well..

very soon.

:)

**Please pray for my dog aka best friend everyone..i love him so much.

thank you guys. :)

I appreciate it so much.

God misses me..

      Hello awesome friends :) Thank you for always being there for me and supporting my blog. :D By the way, to night I am posting a new story about my life recently. I love my life ! Yeah, I know not being able to go to church is the most 'sucks' thing I ever had, but on the contrary..I actually happy with my life now. 

Why ?

The story goes like this, well, in our life not everything that we wish for we will get. You know what I mean right ? and so do I. What happen today was..amazing and I realised that God misses me to do my part as His servant..I had enough rest and He want me to back on track..

How ?

There's few incidents happen and I think He did it on purpose, things like I was sick and He send my precious  to encourage me to go to church instead of doing canoe's activity that Sabbath..and as I was thinking..

" Yeah...I think he is right..I must rest..what if I just go to church tomorrow..one day absent on canoe's activity won't affects my CGPA "

So, when I went to the church..I was blessed by Him because He send Dr. May Colougn from Andrew's University, America to gave sermon plus joined my Cornerstone's class. :D *blast

Her sermon touches me..I cried..because back at that time..I was in deep stress.. :( aww...Thank You God..

You love me so much..thank You because You had given me a very responsible boyfriend on me, my believe and my faith..He also want me to SERVE YOU more than the world..I love You God..and I love him :)

#2nd story - God Misses me

               My second story happen today :), just now I found out that my precious haven't had his lunch since morning..he had a glass of milk for breakfast and fasting since then. *I was upset lol

Yes, after the canoe's class today I went to church for singing activity to praise God, filled the free time and release tension at the same time. :D 

I drove all the way to the mountain of the church :P * I did it..thanks God.(scary memories back then..huuu )

I got out from the car..He walked out the church *I saw him..smiling..happy face..and..

:"P

" I miss you.." 

Shortly, we spend our time with friends and family singing and chatting and doing things like parkour - HE DID. So, I 100% focus on him only :D haha

Why ?

Because,  haven't met him for weeks..and last time we were on Skype..He teared off and so do I..I love him. Yes, the differences between us make our relationship stronger. 

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[ back on God miracle ]

We went for a dinner. Mcdonald..I forgot my cell phone. Went home and It wasn't at my friends at the first time. Well..went to met other friend it was not with her either..so...went to the church..it was not there too..

heres the miracle part.

After sending precious I found out he forgot his lappy in the car, at the same time I had to went back to my friend house to take my cellphone which is near to his house. (combo work DONE in one time) - but my cellphone wasn't there ( God says...wait Grace.. )

2. so precious accompany me back to church at 7pm..dark...silent hill..hihi.we found out they did not switch off the fan..( combo work DONE in one time ) - but my cellphone wasn't there either..( God says..hang on Grace )

3. So I texted the first friend back..and she suddenly said.. " I am sorry..your phone was with me "

The value of the story is..God misses me so much He used me to finish the un finish job left by some of His child..I can feels that God want me to get my feet stand on the track back. aww God...I will..:) very soon..very soon...thank you YOu almighty Father. 

sincerely,

grace

i love you

Hye beautiful guys :)

So here I am posting a new story of mine haha

Well..this time ( as usual I let the picture do the talking )

much love,

grace.

Cute

Heii guys :) this post is specifically for my precious one. :)

So, they (Jared and Savannah) were couple. Yes. they broke up..

bla bla bla..but I loves their videos. I mean ALL of their video. haha

They were such a cute couple..and the reason I post this video on my blog is,

 Jared remind me of my precious one.

Well yeah..I have my 'Jared' 

Surprise ?

haha 

Well..there were phrase sounds like this;

" The most unexpected relationship is the BEST one "

yeah

:')

**Well who wants to know how my precious treated me? how special I am in his eyes ?

Just watch the videos and CUT the kissing part *it was cutely annoying haha 

Cl*ment is my Jared. :)
*to watch the video kindly turn pause my song list first (up) then click the 'play' button
sorry if the video lag
much love from me.

thank you

youtube.

sincerely,

grace

PEARL INDUCTION NIGHT

Hye there awesome friends :) *P/s I ain't have class today, 

so after feeding the puppies, Shiro and Papau..

here I am posting new post. 

As you can see, today I am going to share a little bit about my experienced on my 

very first INDUCTION NIGHT :)

16th February 2013

Keliangau Menggatal's Church

It really kills my back doing all the things that need to be done.

*well done to everyone.

So, PATHFINDER is an Adventist World Wide Club organised by the 

Junior Youth Mission to keep all the youngster alive in spreading God's mission. In the other 

word..it is our SCOUT team :) added with a little bit of sweet and sour *God's love

well...here we are..

:: Pathfinder Logo

:: Pathfinder Logo

Let the pictures do the talking..

p/s : I am so sorry for the perspective view

:: Pathfinder Law

:: Pathfinder Pledge

:: Theme song,

Go light Your World.

Deputy : Miss Agnes 

R. Deputy : Sir Hedley

Accompanied by, Masterguide Pr. Rison & Niko ( i guess )

Climax : 'Breaking The Ice'

'Go out there, and light your CANDLE'

lastly,

snap snap time ;)

  

So guys, please respect each other.

Keep the Pathfinder Law and Pledge in our HEART forever.

Yes, we are not perfect.

But rules are made for the imperfect..so stop showing

rebellion attitude and start contribute to our team..family..club.

Theres so much more we can do and we can achieve if we stick together and get involve.

be positive and do it for God sake.

No one pushing you to do it..

its your choice.

Have you made a choice ?

**Pr Rison quote :

" without the youth, the Church can't go anywhere "

Take your part..even the smallest one.

Thank you.

God bless us all.

P/s : Pearl Club received RM110 donation during the induction night. Halleluyah!

Thank God, Thanks guys.

broken trust ?

heyy...:')

:")

good night everyone. :)

Everything is NORMAL

hello awesome friends and blogger...anyone ? anybody ? hihi

It is been a blast for all of us who celebrating CNY

and totally bored day for those who doesn't :)

Happy Chinese New Year Once more. :)

So, as time past by..and now I am awkwardly in my new bedroom..filled with

stuff and unpacked things..

pheww....

:(

I miss my mini bedroom..but I hope everything will turn out to be better.

Since I live in my other fake, 'fragile' house I am no longer have an interest on

making my bedroom look as descent as I can..well..maybe it was a

' malas disease' 

or maybe..I was just too tired on finishing other task and I just don't have time to do the others..well..LIFE

ptffff

*Laugh as long as you can because you never know what is waiting for you in the future..ahaha

I hate saying wise phrase because sometimes I feels tired of doing the right things all the time.

To be the good one...to be the better one..

hate it

but..its normal.

it is normal to feel bad about yourself and it is normal to feel awesome about some stuff

for example..

I can watch TV while standing upside down *totally insane 

but its normal...

**and I believe that life will KNOCK you down..but you will always rise up.

thats

NORMAL

sincerely,

grace

My sweet DREAM

Hello awesome friends ! :) So, after the CNY activity with friends..

well CNY means CHINESE NEW YEAR. hihi...yeah 

HAPPY CNY everyone..and thank you aballe for the HUNG PAO !! haha..

love money ;P

Well, here I am posting something new. :) I had this dream..daydream or whatsoever.. haha

After the CNY celebration I went home and take a nap..yeah sleep maybe until almost 10pm =.=

even my precious text me but I didn't notice..pity~ :(

by the way..I called my precious and it was ok. :)

SO

____________

I shall call this dream..the coolest dream of mine. hehehe

It started with a cool guy, but of course I have to randomly choose a man (down- not so cool)

without clothe on to give

you guys a vision about my dream ;P

The guy in my dream happen to be my BOYFRIEND yuhuuu...I have a boyfriend

in my dream..very the cool isn't it ?? hahaha

So, we were having a great time together at the beach...it was crowded, yes, 

but I have so much fun with

my friends and him --> the boyfriend hahaha (i feels like laughing all the time phewww)

Then suddenly, I was shocked by a story from my friend, 

a girl which I don't really know in the real life, but I knew her well in my dream..*singing

She said that the peace of the beach was because of a lady who been sacrifice for the sake

of the folks there.

Shortly, the next ceremony will be held and she was the chosen lady to be sacrifice. SADLY,

she set me up. :(

She wanted me to take her place to be eaten by the JAWS. 

okeii (in my heart..SCARED) dup dap dup dap..

But before that, the gorgeous guy of mine, he give me adventure and 

FUN of a life time hahaha..

He heard the crowd claim about a huge wave is moving toward us..so he wanted to see it..

He brings me to the other side of the beach..and I saw this kind of vision in my dream..

**woahhhhhhhhhhhh 

Him : WOW...that was beautiful !!!!

Me : yeah~ huge~ 

I was thinking..if we can just wait there and the feel the wave past through..

*FEEL THE WAVE ?

Hell NO.

My man carries me and ran as fast as he can to save me from the wave.

He ran while laughing..*wow positive habiss

haha

I can't even feel anything back then..He was fast and so strong..

He ran away from the wave and of course the wave was chasing us..*natural

Then suddenly, he threw me far away into the water !!

***SPLASH !!

and splash some more..big time. because of the wave. but I am fine..only that..

I was sleeping..maybe unconscious..

**yeah..what does it mean if you were sleeping in your dream ??

I might have a great imagination skills isn't it ? hahahaha

;P

And the moment of TIDAK BEST started..:(

*a bunch of people wake me up..

"Grace..grace...wake up...you are safe now. :)"

Shortly,

I din't saw him again since then..where is he..where is my man...who always

be there for me..and suddenly..he just..

VANISH..like a tsunami..

"hit you hard..but not hard enough to make you forget about him"

I was looking for him since I open my eyes..

But he was no longer there..

then..

My devil friend set me up to be the scapegoat for the ceremony..

Well..she push me to do that..

I fight back..but she was strong..she have a friend, guy. Helping her..

So that I can be eaten by he Jaws. **you B*CTH

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I didn't die.

:)

what happen ?

I save my self by waking up.

;P

hahaha..

coolest dream ever right guys..

much love,

grace